(Below are three responses to my previous essay.  My responses are in italics.)

N.’s Response:


I just read your paper with great interest.  You make a number of important points.  However, you say repeatedly that not every group needs to follow all of the 10 steps [required according to IndividualEvolution.org] to be successful.  However, you never give any support for that opinion.  You may be right about that, but I wish that you would give specific details showing which steps can be omitted and why?  You indicate that various movements have been successful in the past without using all these principles.  But I believe those so-called successes have only been partially successful.  The reason for that may be that they have not followed all of the points B. has used.





Not every group needs to, should have to, or can undergo evolution or revolution in exactly the same way; given their collective or individual needs or even readiness that differs from one group to another.  Witness different cultures, nations, or communities and their intellectual, cultural, and equality revolutions or evolutions that have occurred since the beginning of recorded history, whether ancient, early modern, or recent.  Each group proceeds and advances according to their needs and readiness (whether propelled by a vanguard of individuals within the group that propels everyone forward or a majority) versus the force that the bureaucracy, political and military, will allow or can withstand, with or without bloodshed. No group is immune to this, whether they are cultural revolutions, revolutions in political power, the Civil Rights movement of the recent past, the Arab Spring, or even the beginnings of Occupy, or the newer, more concentrated, and very aware #BlackLivesMatter civil rights movement within communities of colour. 

Not every individual matures in exactly the same way.  Consider the body suspension that I chose to undergo.  If B had included that as something necessary for individual evolution, would you have subjected yourself to it if you did not want to?  Your evolution is different than mine, is different than B’s, is different than A’s, is different than everyone’s.  Codifying a series of acts or tasks as necessary to move from one stage to another without consideration of individual circumstances, differences, or needs codifies the bureaucracy that we are all attempting to rid ourselves of, especially when one person may not at the stage that someone else is.  Does that mean that the evolution of one individual is lesser or greater than another’s? 

Are the means to Individual Evolution more important than the ends?  This is what I ask myself daily.  My view is that Individual Evolution is very much akin to the Universe, or the Divine.  There are several means, or faiths, that different groups employ, but the ends are the same. The means all lead to One Source.  There is no one correct way to reach the Universe.  All roads lead there.  How each of us arrive there is our own journey.  Sometimes, individually they overlap in the case of Jewish Pagans, and sometimes people manage to learn ways that skip most of the steps to get there, in the case of the Buddha, the Jesus Christ, Mohammed (blessed be his name to Muslims), and even Pramahansa Yogananda. 

On occasion, I will wear a dress, and I have contemplated other aspects of my personal (r)evolution that I will probably experiment with in the future.  These aspects of what I do are my evolution to counter, defy, and evolve past the bureaucracy that exists in conjunction with the patriarchy that tells me that as a male gendered man, I am not supposed to wear a dress when in fact neither of clothing has no gender.  There are no rules.  There may be personal rules that someone else might use for their evolution, but it is not for me to make those rules for them.  That would become a Bureaucracy that is probably even more detested than anyone in this group because it’s use has been the cause of clashes, disagreements, arbitrary rules and dismissals, even wars, and I no longer have patience for any bureaucracy that I don’t have to tolerate for reasons other than of survival or necessary appeasement in the case of a loved one (and even that is tentative and wears thin). 

To evolve into the fullest individual via personal or group evolution or revolution that one can be, whether wearing pants and boots or dresses and makeup or living the fullest life possible without fear as a transgendered person of colour, and even an even deeper spiritual evolution, each one is valid and important. 


A.’s Response


This is a nicely written essay. You might want to say a sentence or two at the beginning regarding who Sandra is, since there will be readers who do not know who she is.

Thank you. for that clarification.  I fixed that before I posted this piece to my site and elsewhere.

I think you’re right that there is no procedural order as to how an individual can and will evolve.  In fact, we in the Academy are leaning toward starting with the heart, since that is the part most repressed and fooled by the propaganda of the elites.  However, without the awareness, or head, as you are pointing out, there’s nothing to be mad about. Afterwards, you can and should develop a sense of righteous indignation.  As to what to do with the hand, that is where you test the head and heart using the scientific method.  (This is the pendulum metaphor of the scientific method.)

Thank you for that point.  In my passion, I failed to mention that that is probably not missing in the alternate evolutionary trajectory of any one person or group.  Breaking it down into pieces, except for a few individuals, is probably difficult, and even for those select few, it may be challenging to determine where one impetus begins and one ends. I see much cross pollination everywhere, even here.   One movement and one idea pollinates another and there is ongoing revolution and evolution, in spite of the fact that it doesn’t follow one plan or another, though there are plans of groups and individuals own design, perhaps hundreds or millions.   

You are absolutely on the right track when you notice that bureaucracy lies behind why most civil rights movements fail, or at least run out of steam after partial victories.  Bureaucratic processes and structures, what we in the Academy refer to as the Bureaucratic Code, are largely invisible, and therefore very difficult to break through institutionalized racism, sexism, and every other imaginable ism imaginable, all of which hinge on bureaucratization.

From everything I have read and studied, bureaucracy simplifies it a little bit too much.  Bureaucracy is endemic and it is a major impediment, but it is “working” in conjunction with capitalism and probably several other elements that are difficult to distinguish, one from another, but like racism, unless you are affected by it, it is mostly difficult to see.  Notwithstanding my readings into the overview of chaos theory which are nascent at this point, I also see attempts to control the bureaucracy, markets, and capitalism where no controls can hold what is going to happen on its own.  Given that tiny tease, I see racism eventually breaking down and the patriarchy eventually losing control evolutionarily, however slow it has been and however rapidly it will happen. 

Therefore, it is important that we see how not only racism and sexism and other specific isms are part of our personalities, but how bureaucratization in general is structured invisibly within our consciousness and unconsciousness, and that these bureaucratized consciousnesses reside in all races and genders.

I agree, but I also see them, even propaganda as all insidiously connected, feeding off of the others with a handful attempting to consciously or subconsciously controlling the rest as puppets or the like. 


B’s Response:

Michael, I’m really glad that you communicated how you feel about BlackLivesMatter. Your own emotional commitment to the importance of Occupy and BlackLivesMatter can be a lesson for me, and, N. and O. Without emotional commitment, which is ruled out by the Bureaucratic Code, we can’t go very far in changing ourselves or the world.

Thank you, B. You make some very valid points, that I mostly agree with.  I have not responded to everything, but I have responded to your points that seem to been misunderstood in my original essay. 

I completely agree with you intellectually and emotionally that we must learn to change the terrible racism that presently exists in this country and elsewhere. We must act (hand), based on an understanding (head) and emotional commitment (heart). This is the way the scientific method works, as illustrated by the pendulum metaphor: awareness of a problem (head), commitment to making progress on the problem (heart), with both representing a swing of the pendulum of the scientific method, and action to make such progress (hand). Academicians almost invariably have been deficient in heart and hand, and neither have they done well in understanding the causes of the problem and how to confront it effectively (head). The manuscript is by no means the last word, but I’m convinced that it does far better in pointing toward a head-heart-hand approach that can become increasingly successful. That approach, more specifically, embodies 10 elements of the Bureaucratic Code and 10 corresponding elements of the Evolutionary Code. Note that 3 elements of each code have to do with action. Also note that 3 elements of each code have to do with emotions, by contrast with the value-neutral stance of most social scientists. Also note that the four elements of each code that have to do with head go against both the narrow specialization with little integration of knowledge (especially in the social sciences and the humanities) to be found throughout the academic world, pointing instead toward an interdisciplinary approach.

I agree with you in part, but the racism that exists in this country and others in not just merely a conspiracy theory, as you suggest that I believe below, it is embedded in society as it now stands, built with capitalism and enforced by a political majority that benefits from that embedded racism controlled by a white patriarchy. Social scientists and others that have observed its insidious effects can attest to this, and it it so very obvious to so many observant and affected and effected by it that are walking this earth, but it may not be obvious to those in control. 

Unless those 10 points can and will be used to genuinely change the political majority, rather than offer concessions to shut up those most affected with temporary solutions, I don’t see how change will happen for the long term. Yes, knowledge and individual change is needed, but contemplation is not going to change a power structure that is only interested in maintaining itself for the long term.  If head, heart and hand are used in conjunction with one or many group(s) in a movement, and I am convinced that they are, but not in the way that you map, change will happen, and it will be a positive change, but if it is insisted that anyone, individuals and groups, must adhere to a specific plan of action for change, change will come to a standstill.  I am too much of an optimist and an activist at heart to believe that there is only one way to accomplish a task.  There are always many ways to accomplish a task, and in this case, there will not be just one group, but there will be many working together. 

A problem with this approach is that it requires absolutely fundamental changes in the individual, a process that takes time, given that we are all deeply socialized by the Bureaucratic Code, and I believe that this includes you and me. For example, when you include rioting in your strategy for achieving change, I believe that you are falling into the trap of element #9 of the Bureaucratic Code which points toward aggression and moves in the direction of war, terrorism, racism against whites, etc. By contrast, element #9 of the Evolutionary Code (see my Blog #2 and in particular the Levin experiment) calls for an inward-outward orientation, one which Levin found to yield less racism than an outward orientation. At present I, A. and N. are ACTING to move away from our own outward orientation so as to develop an inward-outward orientation so that we can both decrease our own prejudices and also teach others to do the same. We’re not just talking about it: we’re taking action to move in this direction. To the extent that we succeed, we will have uncovered a direction for eliminating racism that is effective yet is not discussed either throughout the media, in the Occupy movement, or in the BlackLivesMatter movement.

I never included rioting in my “platform for change”.  What I did state, however, was that the change that needs to happen will not happen peacefully and without struggle.  The political majority is one that has held power for so very long that they are afraid that they are going to lose it, and they know that they will eventually lose it because they have held it so long and so inequitably. They know. In point of fact, when whites are still holding the power structure of control, institutional racism in fact, they, the white patriarchal majority, cannot be subject to racism by definition and by institutional control.  That’s not to say there is prejudice against whites, and in some cases, deservedly so. 

What is missing from your assessment of the Bureaucratic code, unless it is a given, is that capitalism, in all its forms, was built on the back of exploitation, whether racism and slavery, or exploitation of indigenous or poor populations of workers forced to move to city centers from small rural communities and small townships to adhere to a strict bureaucratic code for a barely livable wage.  To substitute one code for another is just as exploitative when no thought is given that there is more than one way to accomplish a goal.  History can verify this in several avenues.  While individual evolution, from person to person, is probable, it is also probable and possible to accomplish this from group to group.  In the case of individuals, witness Jesus the Christ, Mohammed (blessed be his name to Muslims), Buddha, Zarathustra, and countless other prophets, whether religiously Western or monotheistic or polytheistic, each one had a method of evolution that worked for them.  To say that they did not have a method that was effective for them is to discount the millions of different psyches that have populated the earth and have reached a method of spiritual and material evolution that bettered themselves, individually or collectively, at the very least. 

A key difficulty that we are facing in this effort is that all 10 of the elements of the Bureaucratic Code point in an outward direction. So we must proceed to move toward all ten elements of the Evolutionary Code in order to be effective. The manuscript and the blogs can help to give us a direction for making such changes within ourselves and helping others to do the same.

I agree wholeheartedly, but the method to accomplish this is not a single but a multifaceted one, and not necessarily the one you promote.  For you, A., and N., and possibly me, this may be effective, but it is not effective for everyone, and not necessarily suited to their personality, needs, or circumstances. 

Another difference in strategy has to do with your own conviction that because you are white you are in position to help lead any movement to change racism against blacks. Granting that you have not experienced that racism that blacks have experienced, those experiences do not necessarily point them in an inward-outward direction (element #9 of the Evolutionary Code) and away from aggression (element #9 of the Bureaucratic Code). On the other hand, those experiences of racism do help blacks to develop emotional commitment to end racism (element #5 of the Evolutionary Code). I believe that whites can develop such commitment, but it is more difficult if they have not experienced what blacks have experienced. Thus, it is indeed possible, although difficult, for you, me, Andy and Neil to help lead efforts to end racism against blacks, granting that it is difficult for us to learn to develop the necessary emotional commitment.

Out of everything I said, let me be perfectly clear that I never said that as a person who is, for all appearances, white, I am in a position to help or even lead a movement to change racism against people of colour.  I cannot do that.  No white person, man or woman, gay, lesbian, transsexual, or asexual, can do that.  I remember an article where a current prominent activist pastor was interviewed, a current one.  He had many profound and powerful ideas, but the one thing that has stuck with me is that he stated emphatically that he takes his direction from a queer black woman, as if he has the right or experience to dictate the intricacies of a movement that is not affecting his generation as much as it is affecting a younger generation of people of colour.  He knows.  I am no different.  I am going to be involved if I am accepted and wanted, not as any leader but as an ally. I won’t and cannot even dictate that.  There is a huge difference.  This movement, this evolution for change cannot be led by anyone except those that are most affected. Anything less will yield no effective results. 

Yet another difference is what I see as your belief in a conspiracy theory explaining much of racism against blacks, a theory that smears whites in general with a very broad brush. Bear in mind, however, that a majority of whites voted for Barack Obama, and bear in mind that a conspiracy theory based largely on race is itself an example of racism against whites, illustrating element #9 on aggression of the Bureaucratic Code. There is indeed lots and lots of racism throughout the world, yet I believe that this is a product of the relatively invisible Bureaucratic Code that affects all races, including individuals within the BlackLivesMatter movement. If this is true, then racism very largely derives form a Bureaucratic Code that pushes all of us in a racist direction, and this suggests a strategy for helping all of us move toward the Evolutionary Code with its inward-outward orientation. I, A. and N. presently are ACTING to change our own outward orientation.

Please understand that just because a majority of whites voted for Barack Obama does not mean they are not racist.  To truly understand racism, what it is, and what it does, insidiously, it requires understanding what a person of colour is subjected to in the most major, minutest, and subtlest ways on a daily basis from the day they are born.  It is expressed in rules, in laws, in actions, in gestures, and even in the language that is used to discuss people of colour and language that is used to address persons of colour.  It is technically and realistically impossible to understand outside of that context and without being a person of colour and living in their skin and their shoes.  Remember my continuing passion for research in the area of the propaganda of racism and sexism embedded in the language?  It is very real and very visceral to those that are subjected to it and live with it daily. It is almost impossible to understand outside of that. To understand all of that, at least part of it, is to understand what institutional racism is, how it created capitalism, and how capitalism continues to feed off of it.  To truly understand it, at least from the position of an ally (because you and I cannot truly or intimately understand what racism is and what it does to a person of colour), ask a black woman, and then be completely quiet and listen, and do not question or interrupt what they have to say. 

Mike, the length of your essay suggests the depth of your emotional commitment to end racism against blacks. I admire your commitment, and I’m working to increase my own emotional commitment to end aggression of all kinds. For example, in our last meeting Andy, Neil and I decided to record our successes and failures during the day in our efforts to move toward the Evolutionary Code, which in turn will help us to reduce our own racist orientations linked to the impact on us of the Bureaucratic Code. Specifically, I’ve come up with an image of a soccer ball that I can keep in mind as a metaphor for egalitarian versus prejudicial and aggressive behavior. It’s related to the film “Invictus,” where Nelson Mandela influences the whites on the Springboks soccer team of South Africa to help him move toward an egalitarian society by winning the world championship, which they did, with the aid of the black player on the otherwise all-white team, and celebrating the South African nation with its mix of races. Thus, I’m learning to see that soccer ball as an antidote to the aggression that I experience both within my own behavior as well as externally. And as I continue to use that metaphor, I will change the structure of my behavior (element #4 of the Evolutionary Code). And as I continue to use other metaphors for the various elements of the Evolutionary Code (e.g., a stairway with steps wide enough for the entire human race, illustrating element #1 of the Evolutionary Code with its overall vision of an evolutionary way of life;  the Doomsday Clock reading 3 minutes to Midnight as a visual metaphor for element #10 of the Bureaucratic Code that points up our failure to solve world problems; and the torch of the statue of the statue of liberty as a metaphor for our democratic values of equality, freedom and the fundamental worth of every single individual as an illustration of element #6 of the Evolutionary Code with its emphasis on values).

A soccer ball can act as a metaphor for action and improvement, yes, but in the minutest ways, are you noticing how actions affect others, are you noticing how language is used, as I mentioned above, to demean, to minimize, to infantilize other human beings without even noticing the language involved.  More is required than just metaphor and thoughts.  Action is needed and actions are needed.  I have mentioned this above, but let me reiterate. When words and actions and gestures, intimate that women are the equivalent of children and referred to as girls, it minimizes their contribution and it devalues.  There are hundreds of these words that I could cite.  Are you incorporating a change of vocabulary to facilitate this system of metaphoric code with the Individual Evolution so that words and intentions are transformed?  There are even thousands of more words that people use unconsciously to refer to a person of colour.  

 Even if someone voted for Obama, doesn’t use a word that in prior eras referred to a black person (and is still used, unfortunately), when they use a term like” thug”, denigrate a fashion or clothing style as “ghetto” that is primarily worn by men and women of colour (but when worn by a white person as “original”), the racism is hidden, “in code” so an overtly racist term is not used.  The effect is the same and can be heard and seen on the daily “news”.  These things all need to be addressed and they don’t necessarily need to be addressed by one vanguard group.  One group is not going to effect change unless they control the strings of government and society, and even then it is difficult.  It will take many groups and many individuals.  They all may not use the same means, but the ends, the ends are what are important.  Joining with other groups to effect change is vital or any movement of change will die with its founders. 

Mike, overall what I’m saying is we cannot afford to make the mistake of the countercultural movement of the 1960s with their efforts to change our bureaucratic culture. The codes illustrate a very deep interdisciplinary understanding of a strategy for achieving fundamental changes away from racism along with the full range of our pressing problems, reversing the very limited understanding of how to achieve basic change by the students of the 1960s.Just as you have a sense of urgency about prejudice and discrimination against blacks, my own sense of urgency is about a wide range of escalating problems throughout the world that I link to my visual metaphor of a clock reading 3 minutes to Midnight.

The mistakes that were made were that the movement didn’t go far enough to demand rights.  In a much similar but very different way from a brief movement of Hispanic New York musicians that I was involved with who demanded equal time for their music on New York radio stations, the movement dissolved when a few key musicians were given a few concessions.  The concessions were and are a distraction to overall equality.  Until people of colour achieve equality, true equality, none of us will achieve equality and none of us will evolve, revolutionarily or evolutionarily. 

Thanks for the informed response.  I appreciate it. 




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“Nobody in the world, nobody in history, has ever gotten their freedom by appealing to the moral sense of the people who were oppressing them.” -Assata Shakur.

While I am certainly not qualified to compose a proper tribute to Sandra Bland, I am qualified as a social psychologist to analyze some elements of #BlackLivesMatter in relation to Individual Evolution1. In order for either to impact societal change, it will be necessary for both to be revolutionary. In this case, revolution implies change. Whether it is gradual or immediate depends upon the need and the circumstances. Political minorities have been programmed into subservience for centuries via a political majority fueled by institutionalized racism utilizing propaganda promoting the idea that if they do what they are taught, what they are told, and what is demanded of them, they will receive fair treatment, equality, and integration with that political majority. In other words, if they play nice, institutionalized racism will eventually disappear. That has not happened, and it will never happen unless it is demanded as forcefully as possible and racism is deinstitutionalized. For most people, recent events contradict the myth of a peaceful transition. For some, Individual Evolution does not need to proceed according to a formula that progresses from a bureaucratic vision to an evolutionary power (the Head of logical thought through the Heart of desire to the Hand of action). And while individual evolution continues to evolve through a series of conference call classes anyone interested is welcome to attend, I will argue that it doesn’t necessarily need to follow this method to be successful.

A friend asked me to write this, even after I explained that I am not worthy to write a tribute to Sandra Bland, the woman who was recently murdered by a Texas police officer and made to appear as though she hanged herself in her jail cell. I know I am not worthy because Sandra Bland should not have been murdered. I know I am not worthy because the families of every person of colour, men and women that have left us too, too soon, before and after Michael Brown in recent months and, frankly, in the last few hundred years of murder in the employ of institutionalized slavery and racism, understand what is at stake better than I do. People of colour have died and continue to die needlessly, sacrificed to the bloodlust of a white patriarchy that doesn’t care, a white patriarchy that lashes out in fear and hatred with the knowledge that their control, their enslavement of everyone not like them, their reign, will end soon. Those that have been awake for centuries are still awake, and they have awakened the rest of us, though frankly we all should have been wide awake and alert for decades if not centuries, leaving institutionalized slavery, with all its permutations, in a weakened blob at the bottom of the dustbin of history.

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For your listening pleasure, here is my radio interview from last night.  This is something I had not thought about doing until the opportunity was presented to me by the producers of Radio Islam who found my content here.  For those of you who are curious, I am open to other opportunities to discuss cultural conditioning/propaganda, sexism, racism and everything that the intersection of all of those subjects entail and more. I am about halfway into the show. If you have time to listen, I would love to know what you think. 

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(Or as I would like to call it, The Intersection of Common Knowledge with Sexism and Racism, but that will have to wait for my own research study.)

This was written in response to a request from the VU University Amsterdam admissions department as part of the Social Psychology master’s degree application.  I need to write more often because I certainly enjoyed this, however short it is.

Within social psychology, cooperation research is normally devoted to altruistic cooperation, where one individual appears to assist a different individual without any incentive or reward, but there is little research literature devoted to mutual coordination or what the authors of the Psychology of Coordination and Common Knowledge (Pinker et al.) term, common knowledge, “any string of embedded levels of knowledge that falls short of infinity.” The authors decided to address the epistemological challenges and explore the problems associated with cognition and motivation of mutual cooperation between two or more individuals. They wanted to test their hypothesis, whether people react positively to common knowledge when confronted with an activity that requires cooperation with one or more other individuals. Based on previous research, the authors expected to find more cooperation through common knowledge and mutual benefit that with secondary shared knowledge.

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This may be my final retrospective of Full Life Farm for 2014, but life and adventures, the academic and homesteading ones, will continue as I work towards an MSc in social psychology, a PhD in community psychology, and the co-creation of an intentional community eco-village while I also learn of life and the uses of herbal medicine. Hopefully, you have read my other experiences in previous entries so this won’t be a difficult to follow. Rather, this will be a reflection of what I have experienced and learned from the end of April to the end of September.

I explored the possibility of an internship over nine months ago when I when I began research and visited Paul, Terra, and Zinnia at the farm in December. The day we met to interview each other, Zinnia was barely four months old, tiny, and bundled up warmly from the cold. It’s now over a month after her first birthday, and she’s walking, laughing, talking, and energizing everyone she encounters. I am eager to visit all of them soon to update them on my adventures and hear them tell their tales.

After nine months of living less than a mile from Full Life and assisting where I was needed, everything became a routine of one sort or another. Paul always generously asked me where I would like to work and assist to occasionally break that routine, but the routines became such a joyous routines in the end. Yes, I am romanticizing but not by much. My destiny is my own collective farming spacer with others. Ultimately, there is much on a farm that generally remains the same, as you read in previous entries, but there was always something to learn, even if it was a tiny but important detail. Full Life was, and is, a wonderful place to learn while communing with nature and warm, intelligent human beings that care about the future of sustainability. I do miss the farm.

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For all of us, especially my little sister whom I love dearly.

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(A first attempt at technical writing.  It’s not perfect but it’s not terrible either.  With more practice, this will improve as well.)

As a metaphor, social psychology is much like the epic novel of a country’s history laid bare from all perspectives including political majority and minorities viewed through the inner workings of their movements explained and interpreted through words, ideas, and points of view, which are generally limited. Statistical research, on the other hand, if it is conducted and interpreted properly, reveals numerical probabilities that cannot be ignored and are similar to the infinity of a profound piece of art,pierre august renoir like Pierre-Auguste Renoir’s “In The Meadow,” that pulls you further and deeper in each time you look to see newer details of raw art or numbers in front of you. In the case of the statistics, the numbers are interpreted through a filter, usually, software, that allows us to see details that the naked eye cannot.

The study of statistics has helped me understand concepts related to raw numbers, and statistics will continue to teach me as I learn further to understand and analyze study results and their interpretations in news articles and academic literature, such as the one I am concerned with here, “The Gendering of Language: A Comparison of Gender Equality in Countries with Gendered, Natural Gender, and Genderless Languages.” While there is more than enough detail in this article to encourage further study, I would like to understand the implications of this study, before moving on to read further academic articles and perform my own research.

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It is challenging to summarize the end of the beginning of what has become a lifetime of learning food sustainability. For me, it did not begin in Carrollton, GA at Full Life Farm (http://www.full-life-farm.com); it began in the backyard of my father’s house in the California suburbs where I reluctantly mowed lawns and performed other chores that children never appreciate in the moment. However, I always noticed the very obvious care my Italian farm-raised father put into apricots, plums, peaches, oranges, avocados and a variety of other plants that never seemed to grow in abundance. His small scale grafting sparked what has become my lifelong interest. Full Life Farm allowed me to immerse myself in and reignite this lifelong interest. While it is difficult to summarize months of food sustainability experience into a short essay or even a longer one, there are a few ideas that are important here. Learning has always been important to my growth and I will never really stop. Prior knowledge is valuable and should never be discounted, even in unfamiliar situations. I will always ask questions, even if since childhood that has placed me in a variety of trouble but not with the wise that always encouraged it. I will return to these points as needed throughout the following essay.

Full Life Farm is a sustainable farm. Sustainable signifies that the farm lives and thrives upon what it grows. Anything extra goes for sale to local restaurants and the local farmers’ market. It isn’t a factory farm that uses machinery to plow the land, plant seed, weed, or harvest the food crops. It is a small sustainable farm that relies upon its residents, volunteers, and occasional interns to do all of these things. Frequently sustainable farms are also called intentional communities. From research and what I have learned over the last several months, an intentional community, whether a house with a large garden inside the city limits or outside of the city limits on a small farm, is an enclosed community shared between several individuals (and possibly families). If anyone is interested in a more in-depth explanation of intentional communities (ICs), please consult http://www.ic.org. I began my quest for an IC months before this internship began, and my education will continue long after the formal education of this internship ends when I leave the farm and I leave the country. It began as and always was more than just an internship.

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While the semester and my official learning experience through a farming internship are almost technically over, I am far from finished, and I don’t plan to stop learning for quite some time.  That’s counterproductive to my nature.  As life breathes through my veins, learning will continue wherever I am in the world, whether at another university, another country, or another farm and intentional community.  All of the above is about to happen.  As I have grown and learned from everything and everyone, this is my destiny.

For the first time in a while, Monday was too wet to work on the farm.  It rained most of the night and the previous weekend so the solution in times like this is to take my previous skills that relate to farming and food sustainability and use them to benefit the farm.  Back when I began interning at Full Life Farm, I mentioned my love of fermentation and home made bread using sourdough starter, and Paul mentioned the excess wheat berries that he has.  So I took those skills and the experience from the previous bread I made a few weeks ago and improved on the recipe and the baking. It came out beautifully and Paul loved it.  He also received another big bag of wheat berries so there will be more bread to make soon and there may even be a regular supply of wheat berries for the farmers’ market.

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While propaganda in the form of unintentional influence and the language of sexism has been independently researched, a review of literature reveals no such studies that link these two topics.   In this paper, I link these two subjects to study the hypothesis that the language of sexism, embedded within media, unintentionally influences individuals and small groups.  Through participatory action research methodology, participants will take part in a series of focus groups analyzing sexist language within media contexts. Findings will indicate how media sexism influences individuals and small groups, what that influence means to the health of their local community, and what action should be taken to alleviate negative consequences.


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The week began on Sunday with a few friends visiting for a short tour of Full Life farm.  I continue to invite everyone that I encounter, especially close friends who are obviously interested in food sustainability.   If you live close, I will be honored if you are able to come. The warmer weather will offer more and more opportunities for visits, especially with the Carroll County farm tour the week before the local farmers’ market opens.  Later in May and June, there will be House Building Days.  There may even be a day set aside to build a Cob oven.  I am looking forward to these coming work days because these are skills that are vital to the future of sustainability locally and internationally where I intend to take these ideas.

Monday began with prepping, weeding, and the leveling of soil as well as creating a pathway between two plant beds while avoiding the mixture of wood chips that are filled with carbon (which would eat the energy in the compost-manure and take it away from plants that need it most. This time the plant bed just outside of the Hoop House was selected for transplanting the Brassica Dinosaur Kale from small pots.  After a search to determine what constitutes Dinosaur Kale exactly, I am leaving this to the observer and for later growth.  There are several varieties of Kale, including the common grocery store Scotts kale (with frilly leaves that usually becomes stuck in one’s throat however small you cut it), Lacinato (usually narrow with slight indentations), and the plain leaf, which has also been commonly called Dinosaur. The plant beds were weeded thoroughly and the weeds’ soil was left for the bed as much as possible.  The removed weeds were fed to the chickens that eagerly devoured the weeds in short order. The seedlings were removed from the pots as delicately as possible and placed in the plant bed that was wide enough with room for four rows.  These were planted as close to the surface as possible to keep them from drowning or burial by water.  Prior to the transplanting, compost was taken from the compost pile at the front of the farm to replenish the plant bed soil that was removed by the removal of the weeds.

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On Sunday, I baked the bread ground from the wheat berries from the previous week, described in the last post.  While I am a perfectionist (regarding taste and aesthetic and artistic appearance) with my bread experiments, everyone is always pleased with the results.  The recipe is basic and a modification of a standard Southern Italian Pugliese country peasant loaf.  The recipe that I use will undergo a slight modification so I will only post the recipe that I will use in the future rather than the one I used.  In fact, this will also end up as the modified Spelt recipe that I experimented with weeks ago and have experimented with for the last few years.

On Thursday, I created the build, the mixture of already growing rye sourdough starter and wheat flour.  I use sourdough starter rather than commercial yeast because it is more natural, healthier, ancient, and challenging.  For this recipe, I use a 20% mixture where 20% of the flour equals 100 grams and 20 % of the water is 60 grams.  This is for a total loaf size of 500 grams flour bread loaf. Two rough tablespoons of starter are enough and may be more than is needed but it is my standard and it works fine.  For reference, I use the metric system grams rather than the English pounds and ounces because the metric system is much easier to multiply and divide.  Additionally, weighing ingredients is much more accurate than the volume measurements of measuring cups.  So now you know.  It takes anywhere from 4-6 to 12 hours and sometimes more (depending upon altitude and weather) for the build to grow where it is ready to add to begin making dough and bread.

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While the rest of the University of West Georgia is on a Spring Break, I am boarding on a farm, and work continues as well as the learning and teaching.  House building was to have begun this week, but the weather was ether too wet or too overcast to dry out to begin.  I have not planted many seedbeds at this point, but I learned from Paul’s observations after taking what I thought was an excessive amount of time. Sometimes things that you do, do not need to be perfect.  When I have my own piece of land or a shared piece of land and few extra hands and much work to do, sometimes close enough is good enough.  In this case it was the spacing between the pea pods.  Paul had additional work to do Friday afternoon so there was little time to linger.

On Monday the rain came down pretty steady for an hour or two, sometimes hard, even during the work that needed to be done on the chicken hoop house.   The chicken hoop house plastic was at least two or more years old, possibly five and has received quite a few pecks from the chickens, which is what they naturally do.  The plastic also deters predator animals as well so there may have been some scars from a few of those encounters.  Prior to the removal, given that the rain had made some of the ground a little muddy, Paul asked me to collect and liberally spread wood chips around the hoop house where Paul, Terra, and I would be working (Unfortunately, I missed one muddy corner, but then there were bigger concerns that day.).  Given the trees that were cut down a few months ago were chipped inside the yard, there were still piles left in the chicken yard that the chickens had generously and unknowingly spread around.  After the worn out and weathered wood strips that secured the plastic to the hoop house were removed and thrown on one of the wood piles, the plastic was finally removed and folded up to be reused elsewhere later.  The hoop house was now ready for a new covering, new wood strips, and reused screws.  The new plastic covering purchased for this purpose is a mesh netting plastic that protects against the rain and is chicken peck resistant as well as raccoon resistant.  There were two pieces so both needed to be secured on all sides to efficiently use the new mesh and keep the chickens securely inside and the predators out.  Between the rain and the assembly, it was after 12 noon when that was finished.

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This week was filled of what I am primarily interested in from many levels:  seeds, planting, and composting.  My interest is, of course, sans animal wastes, but for now, this is the process I am learning and there are applications for every element of knowledge.  I have found an Intentional Community (http://www.ic.org) that is entirely raw and vegan that utilizes another form of creating organic compost, which I am anxious to eventually put to use.  At this point in my apprenticeship/internship, I am a bit more comfortable around the farm and feel as though I am fitting in better than I had at the beginning, and I feel as though I belong there and can contribute a little some piece of knowledge when an opportunity arises.  This is more of me acclimatizing myself to my surroundings rather than the energy surrounding the farm.  And this is probably the case with most people in new surroundings.

On Monday, I began planting Pok Choy (a Chinese and East Asian short, but oblong leafy green cabbage-like vegetable) and Swiss chard seeds in 50 row nursery seed pots. The Pok Choy was a few years old so it received approximately six seeds to each seed pot to insure against non-germination of the older seeds.  The Swiss chard received two seeds to a seed pot, given that they were not so old.  Once the seeds were labeled, dated, covered with previously mixed compost potting soil, and lightly watered, they were placed outside in the sun or in the hoop house.  Later in the week, additional seeds were planted in seed pots but for now there were seeds to be planted in plant beds.  Before that, the plant beds near the half hoop house attached to the greenhouse/library and the whole Hoop House greenhouse had to be prepped.  It was a small bed but it needed to be weeded, shoveled, aired, and raked to prepare the bed.  And three rows needed to be furrowed to plant rutabagas, turnips, and radish seeds.  Later in the morning, Paul and I visited the Haven where I room to prepare part of another row bed to plant beet seeds.  Paul also added posts to the adjacent bed and haphazardly strung string to slow down the bird or birds’ (possibly a cardinal) attempts to get at the seeds.  Paul also planted Kohlrabi seeds in an adjacent bed after I left.  The seedbeds were covered lightly by hand or hoe and watered.  The previously planted potatoes were also covered with hay to insulate against the next few days’ night and mornings’ drop in temperature.

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Given my openly admission to a vegan lifestyle and my tempered discussion of it under the circumstances, everyone that I have encountered at Full Life has been remarkably understanding towards my position.  This doesn’t change my attitude of animals being raised, suffering needlessly just to be killed later. All of this seems extremely Dadaist and absurdist.  Please understand that this is not how I began life as a vegan, this time or the first time I began as a vegan.  Though I became a vegan for the same reasons, living on a farm, seeing and encountering living and breathing animals daily and contemplating their ultimate end has codified my position even more.  I am still grateful for the understanding I have received and will always be grateful, but my next move will definitely be to a vegetarian or vegan intentional community or one that is vegan or vegetarian friendly.

Late Friday afternoon, Pal asked me what my learning intention was as his latest intern.  I took for granted that Paul is doing this actively as a sustainable farmer for he and his family.  I was surprised and impressed to hear that he is doing what he is doing to primarily educate.  My feeling and my philosophy is that everyone is a teacher and everyone is a student, though most do not have a piece of paper that authorizes them to be one or the other or both.  How I feel about the social construction of certified education systems is another discussion entirely, but given my interest in permaculture, teaching, and anarchism, my views would not be hard to deduce. I found his question an intriguing one, given that I had considered it so often over the last several weeks and months but never voiced it to many at the University of West Georgia and certainly to no one on the farm.  It has always been my intention to learn as much as I can to maintain myself and my future family but it has also been to teach others in some way to maintain themselves as well, combining my interests in permaculture (small-scale agriculture that sustains a small community or family group that is environmentally sustainable), herbalism, anarchistic community building, and propaganda, all within the scale of an intentional community, rather than a single family farm.  The latter would obviously include participatory action research with community groups in various national and international locales to actively change and eliminate destructive sexist propaganda used in their community to sell mass-marketed products.  Anything is possible and while this is ambitious, this is what I want to accomplish. I want to actively be the change that I want to see on this planet.

Monday morning began with moving lumber from a makeshift temporary temporary shelter (more or less a temporary but solid covering placed over lumber laid outside of a regular temporary shelter) to the tool shed (above the pantry that is here called “the tool shed”.  Additionally, lumber exposed to weather and rain was moved to under this makeshift temporary temporary shelter.  For the first time I utilized an angle grinder to lightly grind off the sides of slightly weathered lumber exposed to the rainy weather to prevent further mold or temporary decay since this is viable lumber that can be used to build the house later when the spring weather warms enough to begin. Later that morning, I mixed seed planting compost from composted manure, gifted peat moss, and remnants of composted rotting wood.  This was mixed as two parts (two five-gallon buckets) of manure and decomposing composting wood and a few shovelfuls of the peat moss.  Apparently, to maximize the nutrients in these composting elements they have to be rationed properly.  I mention this because most of us are used to purchasing composting soil from the nursery. Once properly mixed, the compost was added to seedling pots, and year old Black Seeded Simpson lettuce seeds were sprinkled into pots six at a time (to insure against any “dead” seeds.  These were placed into the greenhouse for germination.

Wednesday and Friday, besides the standard egg cleaning for the farmers market and the CSA (Community Sponsored Agriculture—a community distribution network that distributes local agricultural goods to the local regional community for a modest exchange rate) there was cutting of seed potatoes to be done for planting later on Friday when it warmed up and the rain stopped.  Any potato larger than a tennis ball was to be cut at least in half for planting, but potatoes had to have at least one live potato eye.  Potatoes used included Red Pontiacs (most did not need to be cut), White Kennebecs (developed by the USDA in Maine several decades ago — some had to be cut), and Yukon Golds (very large but delicious potatoes – all but one had to be cut).  The cut potatoes had to have at least 24 hours to dry out before planting.  The last part of Wednesday morning was spent transplanting Brassica Family (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brassica) seedlings ready for larger pots (because some didn’t grow) and for the garden bed.  Fertilizer was added to plantlings in sectional seed pots to stimulate growth.

On Friday, the Brassica transplanting was completed.  These and other plants were moved into sun in the hoop house to take advantage of the warm weather.  Plantlings in sectional seed pots were watered depending upon size.  The sunny day obviously warranted water, and smaller sectional seed pots required more water, given that such pots dry out faster than larger pots.  When the afternoon arrived, it was warm enough to visit the Haven to prepare plant beds by removing protective hay (rotting hay is good for potato growing, apparently).  Plant beds were furrowed and all but a few of the previously prepared potatoes were planted about three feet apart and properly spaced apart from row to tow to allow for proper growth.  Seasoned cow manure was lightly placed over the planted potatoes.  The hay was left to the side in the walkways to give the newly planted potatoes a little air to breathe prior to being covered in hay. The hay will be placed over the potatoes in a few days to stimulate further growth.

After nine weeks of this, I am awed that I have become more accustomed to helping this farm to function on some level and I am amazed that the little that I am learning each day is adding up to something substantial.  I am even furthering my knowledge, a little at a time, about the herbs that grow round Carrollton as “weeds” on the farm.

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Pretty much my views with a few explanatory elements removed, like the biases of everyone from the Ownership/management to News Director all the way down to News photographer with the Reporters, writers, anchors, and writers in between. Believe what you want but believe you are being manipulated every second by news media everywhere.

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To catch you up, I want to clarify certain terms that I have been using terms in previous weeks and will continue to use in my writing but with short definitions on the side.  Most are obviously not familiar with these terms so I will include links here and short definitions in later posts.  All of these subjects are of interest, but obviously, I will put my own spin on it all and travel part time to teach others in residence and work and learn in the process.

Cob is a form of earth building (http://www.motherearthnews.com/green-homes/cob-building-basics-zm0z13onzrob.aspx) made of clay, sand, straw.  The most common variety of Cob to most in the United States may be the Pueblo housing in New Mexico and the Missions in California made of adobe bricks.  Cob does not consist of single brick, however.  It is a wholly designed lump that can be very insulated if enough straw is used.  Cob ovens are something I would love to learn to build and use in the near future to determine how to create one to bake artisan sourdough bread.  A pizza-enthusiast friend of mine may even be interested in the viability of cob-oven pizza baking.  Permaculture (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Permaculture) is small-scale, ecological, organic agriculture used by individuals and small farms to use the land ecologically (with few large tools that uproot the earth in destruction as with large-scale factory farms.  If all of us are to survive and thrive, creating a future for the future, this is vitally necessary.

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Monday began with another raccoon caught overnight in the Haven’s trap near the chicken coop.  At the time, I considered how this may be part of a raccoon family doing what raccoons do to survive. At the same time, there are the lives of the chickens to be considered as well as the consideration of the Haven’s owners who are raising chickens for egg consumption and chicken meat.  I am still challenged by all of these feelings, but I am certain that if I start a farm with my family or if I join an intentional community, I will be more interested in contributing to the welfare of the community if that community is more vegetarian and more mindful of animal humanity.  To be fair, yes, I know and understand that plants have feelings and they feel and suffer pain.  I also realize that mushrooms scientifically are part animal as well as part plant.  But at the moment, I have not mastered the extraction of nutrients from the air.  I need food to live and to thrive.  Vegan is the food I choose to eat to minimize the suffering that already exists in abundance in the world.  I am here to learn, to teach, and to alleviate as much of that suffering as possible.

Later in the week, I discussed the concept of clipping roosters’ wings.  It’s something I have heard of and may even have discussed with my Nonno, my Italian grandfather many years ago, but this was a good refreshers.  Roosters can sometimes get out of their pens by “flying” up to reach a higher roost. They don’t necessarily fly, but they use the air under their wings to push themselves up and coast.  Given that roosters need their wings as well as clawed feet to fight off any predators, clipping their wings is a challenging decision.  Some farmers clip both wings and some just clip both.  With one or both clipped, it can make the rooster both defenseless and safe.  But leaving the wings intact, can also lead to a rooster’s escape and susceptible to a predator outside the pen.  Like the dilemmas I face daily as a vegan on the farm, Paul has equal challenges to balance his and his farm’s best interests.

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This was a challenging week on the farm, given the extreme cold and especially my views on animals, animal rights, and my vegan diet. Monday arrived and Paul, one of the farm’s owners, knowing my vegan lifestyle (I obviously had to make him aware of this before I signed on to the internship that we both agreed upon), announced the day’s first activity: the slaughter and cleaning of a few roosters. I was asked as a polite courtesy if I wanted to participate, but they all understood when I declined. Friday began at the Haven down the street from Full Life where I stay, and it was announced that a rather large raccoon, who was stealing and killing the chickens because that’s one of the things that raccoons do, had been caught in the trap.

The intellectual and emotional processing I had to perform ata the beginning and end of this week still continues. When I literally had to walk around the animal cleaning station, it had me thinking seriously on the next intentional community I move to. I have been looking through www.ic.org, the intentional community database, for vegan and vegetarian communities, because I do not think it would be physically or emotionally healthy for me to commune and live with animal eaters for any extended length of time. There was a time in the past that I believed I could handle it well. That time has past. At the moment, there is an element of necessity to stay where I am. In spite of these challenges, or because of them, I am learning more than I can possibly include in these reflective diaries.

Instead of participating as I mentioned earlier, I was asked to clear brush and remove fencing and fence posts from a section of back fencing that was formally used as a chicken grazing tail. Weeds seem to run rampant here in spite of everything. It’s rich soil, it’s been raining and snowing and there hasn’t been time to think about controlling weeds and wild plants that need to be tamed when there is so much that needs to be done otherwise.

Given my interest in permaculture, I have asked and expressed curiosity in sustainable methods to minimize the growth of rampant weeds and plants that act as weeds (though I am reluctant to refer to weeds as such at all, given the medicinal herbal value of everything). There are ways that incorporate walkways around plants and plant beds as well as cover crops that work in combination with the walkways that slow down the appearance of weeds. The day ended with the digging of trunk-sized postholes for a grape trellis. Given that it is still winter here and everyone is anticipating spring, much of what I do is out of practical necessity in preparation of the spring that will arrive soon.

Wednesday arrived; it’s been frozen for a day already. The air seems almost frozen, the rain is frozen, and there are icicles on trees and ground everywhere. It’s a winter wonderland but working on the farm, it’s painfully cold. Frozen. I use Buddhist principles as much as possible to create the reality that separates and joins my spirit from this temporary feeling of discomfort. I need to practice more. Midway through the morning, I was offered the opportunity to leave without guilt. I stayed. The Wwoofer stays, the owners stay, because this is life lived daily.

There is no excuse for me to leave so I don’t, but after dealing with wet gloved hands shoving branches into a wood chipper, I ask for the opportunity to do something else. The wood chipper is interesting because it creates woodchips used as mulch in the plant beds. Collecting brush and wood for the wood chipper to clear the farm of brush and clear more land for planting beds for raspberries is obviously more environmentally practical than buying wood chips and throwing away excess debris. It is also cheaper when every resource is needed to be as efficient as possible. While there has been practical discussion of what plants and vegetables, tubers, and other plants are necessary for a working farm, there is also a practical consideration of favorites as well, which are spread throughout fro grown seeds (plums, pears, persimmon), and plant cuttings (brown turkey figs and wine berry).

Friday at Full Life was finally relatively warmer. It is my hope that the groundhog will see his shadow soon. At this point, I am contemplating a final or semifinal place to settle down and grow food and travelling to teach. I don’t want to be near any manner of cold weather any more than I have to. I am also considering the practicalities of starting my own farm with a family or moving to an intentional community where each person’s strengths are utilized to benefit all and increase the quality of life of each member. I continued clearing more composted trees from the recently cleared brush near the pond across from the storage shed and dug a two foot wide path to control more weed growth with a cement brick terrace. Another plant bed was created on the side of the terrace for the raspberries ready for transplant after I left later in the afternoon. Wwoofer Paul continued to install the bricks as well as create the plant bed and readied the area for the transplanting of the raspberries.

Every job is necessary and every body is needed as I am discovering. When you are unable to perform one task there is always another that you can do.

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This week at Full Life Farm began with cut logs already mounted to the concrete floor posts.  The work continues before and after I arrive.  It’s a working farm.  While there are not enough hours in the day, and I would like to be present more often, I realize that life happens, and I have other commitments.  I have learned and I continue to learn.  The learning happens in it’s own time.

This structure is being built to protect newly cut logs and timber from damaging elements, mostly the rains that occasionally happen in this part of Georgia.  It’s not an overly “permanent” structure, but it is something that is built to last a while. It is obviously and certainly not like a finished building that would take time to erect, to live in.  It is more like an open garage. It is essentially an open storage wood shed.

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